Wednesday, November 24, 2021

concerning wanderlust, changes, gandalf, and an overdue hello

Hello there. It's been a bit. I have had longer hiatus' this is true, but this break seemed soooo verryyyy long.  I found myself craving to post all month long but having nothing at all to say. It was like trying to sing a song you don't remember the words to. It just gets frustrating after a while. This week I felt the lyrics coming back to me though, and I'm happy to be blogging again.

actual footage of me heading upstairs to write this post

However, upon opening my blog, I felt it looked... unfamiliar. 


It was so boring. And too "perfect". I want my blog to feel like me and to be a relaxed, creative space. While I do enjoy designing blogs and banners and choosing colors etc., I don't want this blog to feel like a brand and that's what the past design looked like to me. Like an ad for a cookbook or something. So, I changed some things. Added a banner that I made myself and changed the name. Nie is a nickname my little sister gave me. Pronounced n-eye. Doesn't make sense. Origin unknown and unexplained. But it's mine and I like that. 

I have a lot of reading to catch up on from Autumn Ink, Ink Castles, N'rae Bends, and my new favorite, everglow. I'm having serious fomo. Also, it is was the 9th year of Hamlette's Tolkien Blog Party! And I missed it. Again. I've missed it the past four years. 

me logging on to blogger and seeing all of the blog party posts flood my reading list

Autumn is just a busy season for me. Sometimes I'm in my closet making no noise and pretending I don't exist. Other times I'm getting my soul sucked out by a certification program I never wanted to attend. It just depends what's on the schedule.

Lately, I'm being plagued by an intense wanderlust. I say plagued because I am indeed stuck in one spot at the moment. I so dearly want to see the world. The thought of getting old and never having seen mountains or The Blue Lagoon, a different night sky, or waterfalls, or people without American accents is genuinely terrifying to me. I crave an adventure so badly. I want to hop on a plane right now and get dropped off in Iceland with no plans and no idea how to read a single sign. 



Down to Earth is a travel show that looks at different places around the world that value sustainable living, environmentally friendly living, and or holistic health and I am obsessed. The first episode is on Iceland. By the 10 minute mark I was packing up my house haha. The very fact that Iceland uses 0% fossil fuels and even directs the 3% of co2 and hydrogen sulfide they release when using the power of the volcanic steam back into the earth so it can solidify and not harm the environment alone makes me want to be a part of that community. Not to mention the terrain. The mountains. Aurora Borealis. The cold beaches. Even the colorful buildings in the towns. It's like a fairyland. 

places I want to go so far
- iceland
- new zealand
- dark sky island (isle of sark)

Some other things that have been on my mind are... 

brown sugar soy lattes, the lord of the rings (when isn't it), this bag I want, hair care & growing my hair out, living my dream, watching old Barbie vlogs (yes, the Barbie), and this song.  

- from Nie

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